(Written late on my phone, will fix all spelling and grammar errors later!)
I’ve been feeling worn out and unmotivated for a while now. Part of this is because I had a bad cold that for some reason knocked all the energy out of me a week ago (which rarely happens when I get sick). But I rested and now the cold is basically gone but I still can’t get myself motivated to do some of the things I love doing. I still haven’t finished a book I started in March and I haven’t written as often as I used to and there really is no reason for it.
I’m just worn out.
It’s not the first time this has happened and it won’t be the last, but it’s still annoying. I don’t like not feeling motivated to read and write, two of my favourite hobbies. I don’t like that I just want to lay around, that it’s been hard some mornings getting out of bed, that some things feel so hard to do.
That in other areas I feel stretched thin.
That in some ways I think the rope will break.
But it won’t, it never does. But still a fear nonetheless.
And it’s frustrating, but like everything it will pass, its just going to take time. So for now the only thing I can do to try to fix this is to read a few pages of my book and write a blog post. Even if it’s a short one, at least it’s something.